new xanga.. same layout just new name.

xBRAkiNG_x_iNSiDEx .. comment me on that one please <3

later bitches

Currently Listening Back at One By Brian McKnight see related

haven't updated in a few weeks .. oh well.

people suck. like seriousely make me so pissed off sometimes. ur supposed to be my friend but it seems like .. i donno how to explain it. gah! i miss Brittany ! we never hang out ne more.. its weird but yeah i think she needs me b/c i need her.. we need each other! l0l.. she is MY bestfriend and always will be MY number ONE bestfriend.. so fuck u! lmao.. nothing to update about except for the fact that today sucked ass !! just a little =]so im going to get off here .. comment me because i have no life & nbriao friends.. =]

and if i have a problem with u i wil tell u, don't have ur friends come up to me and tell me to stop talking about you because if i was talking about you, you would hear it from me not ur friends or the people who tell ya. K! =)

lAtEr xO

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tabitha - i forgot to tell u.. i got cereal and its reese puffs =] lol like u were eating when i was on the phone w/ u .. actually i didnt get it, my dad picked it out && i thought of u <3

Currently Watching The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (Full Screen Edition) see related

HaPpY tHaNkSgiViNg [ BeLaTeD ] l0l..

Yesterday was fun i guess. i went to my grandma's w// my family! it was kind of scary though because my uncle went to the hostpital because of his back :( so that kind of ruined the moment of a good time we were having. after everyone left i got on the phone & called a few people. Sarah wasn't one of them though. lol because i knew she was gone or i would have because i love her. i called my bestfriend Brittany and told her happy thanksgiving and was seein what she was doin last night. she was at he rmoms til her sis got off work so yeah, i forgot to call her back ! i also called Trent !! ah! i missed him so much, we use to talk like all the time .. i sure missed him ! lol .. i also called Ron , Nick and some other people and told 'em happy thanksgiving..when i left my grandma's i went to my aunt renees and talked to her for a while..then went home layed down and watched t.v.. around 11 or something Sarah called and i was going to go to her house but her mom couldn't come get me and i didn't want to ask my dad to take me because he was like already asleep .. when i got off the phone w/ her i went to sleep.

got up this morning at like 5:45 because my dad took me to my grandma's so i wouldn't have to stay home with my brother .. got up around 11 or so and ate.. then called Sarah !! love her ! so i sat around then i ate lunch and shit. sarah called me back and had her mom come pick me up so we're chillen thinking of something to do tonight ! not quiet sure. comment if u want to do something tonight w// us !! lol ..

so life officially sucks i guess. things aren't going too well .. i told him that i liked him and now its not really awkard like i thought it would be because he said he " knew already " lol so whatever on that one babe! i might have sarah talk to him but i think its something i should do on my own i just don't know what to say yet .. so its pretty confusing i guess! lol.. i think im going to add some quotes on here then just get off or whatever so my s-arah and i can figure out what we are doing tonight !! cOmMeNt

--xO-- i lOvE hiM

the worst feeling in the WORLD is when someone
you love & someone you dream about everynight
and someone you would do anything to be with,
feels the (same way) ..about somebody else

yesterday i tried not to cry
last night i just wanted to die
this morning i didnt know what to do
cause right now, i just want to be with you

during the day at random times
thoughts of you fill my mind
& i picture that smile you gave me
& i swear that for one second ..
i can barely breathe.

Currently Watching New Guy see related

real quik update! lol today was great fun ! me and s-arah played in the s-nOw! hells yeah it was fun ! i thought my xanga would have been totally fucked up but my TaBiThA jAnE fixed it for me! Thanks girl i love u! lol ..but im about to get off here and talk to aub & trent. comment please!

--xO-- i love him &  wish he felt the same </3

i`m the kind of girl that keeps her crap in line     
and with tears rolling down my face i still
manage to say two words - i`M F i N E

& for a few moments,
I actually felt like I meant
something to someone..

FRUStRAtED * cuz i can't tell if ti's real
MAD * cuz i don't know how you feel
UPSEt * cuz we can't make it right
SAD * cuz i need you day and night
ANGRY * cuz you won't take my hand
AGGRiVAtED * cuz you don't understand
DiSAPP0iNtED * cuz you don't feel the same
but i still love you && that won't ever change

Currently Listening Goodfellas By 504 Boyz This is for you boys!! see related

well i just got back from the memorial .. it was fun i guess. i did alot of crying, what can i say ? i loved the boys, they were seriousely like my life. i think it just hit me tonight that they're gone. yeah well atleast i had my bestfriends there with me ! i love you - brit, sarah, page, nikki , aulbs, loren , lanie , nico , josh , tony , anthony , bethie , sage , katie & ashley - i love yOu guys so much xOx Yeah well i guess me & chelsea are ok now.. thats cool i guess. atleast no more drama and we'll prob. be ok until some one else starts running there fucking mouth about one of us and all this shit happens again. gah!

GaH ! today was alright .. then i just came to thinking like sarah said, what if they were given a second chance, but there not and thats what sucks .. and i've deff. come to think that , that was a lesson learned. never am i going to do nething stupid like drinking , well atleast if i drink do it responsibly.. like it makes me not want to do nething but sit at home and just like chill there & maybe play cards.. lol .. no joke! and not everyone is going to learn from this. and they will keep doing the stupid things they do and realize it was a mistake and they wish they could have taken it back ! but im going to get off here and chill with my s-arah and see whats up with my bestfriend RoN jA jA jOn ! lol i love him oh so very much ! cOmMeNt pLeAsE ..

lAtEr LoVeS <3

* R.I.P  // 10 -30-05 // Always Loved aNd Never Forgotten *
Joseph Michael Thomas Bruce - my best friend i ever had & always will have! i love you babe! keep that smile up w/ them cute lil demples! lol love you!!
Dustin Shane VanHoose - wow bubby! i love you so much ! your my big bro and you always will be! i love you! i'll miss your rapter run! lol i love you bub!
Ian Michael Bailey- hey you big goof ball! you know i lOve you so much! and i miss you lots! i love you ! keep shakin that ass to laffy taffy! lol i love you!
Josh Flemming- hi there! lol i didn't know you too well but hey we were all right friends i guess! you know i miss you always bein at amandas! love you!!